Other people’s resolutions

The New Year would always arrive as an early sunshine,
still in the middle of the night.

Arrogant, but promising
you could hear her steps in advance.

That night it was not an object of the universe
I saw burning through the sky,
it was a part of me
separated
burned to dust,
hopefully to disappear in awe.

Of all the wishes,
I had none;
but faith and  arrogance,
just like the year coming.

But in the middle of the night
I remember you confidently whispering to me
“we are born to be great”,
as if you could see through our future.

And perhaps you could.

Dear friend,

it’ s been a while
-a week and some days-
that I ‘m back.
If you were about to ask me how I ‘m doing,
silence would fall between us.
So please, don’t.

Words
-written or spoken-
seem to have no effect these days.
To be honest,
I ‘m questioning myself;
am I still the mistress of words?

Am I?

My wonderful life is missing.
How can I cope with this?
And you too know the secret;
at a wonderful stage, everything is simple.
How can I cope with everything now?

Oh, my friend!
Maybe I should have had a resolution after all!
It would have been not to get so desperate at changes!

Anyways,
what ’s new there?

Dear Alise,

you asked me to write.

At the end of the day
when my body breathes out its pain,
I ‘m sure I have done my best,
I have wasted one less day.

Every time I ‘m walking
my mind runs to the colorful routes just before the shore.

It’s about getting used to it;
existing to the current “here” and elsewhere.

There were times on board
when everyone was so convinced about where the ship would harbor,
yet they were again and again proved wrong.

So much arrogance,
for something beyond our powers,
my dear.  

I learned how to live
the time I eventually abandoned that ship for a shiny city.
Blinded by a sun I had never seen before,
I gave away to controlling no more.